The Wait is almost over

Tonight am an unsettled soul, not out of worry or anxiety but of a much happier sense. Tomorrow, is no ordinary day. The wait has been great, very maturing and now tomorrow the reward of seeing and being with my boo comes to fruition. I am very excited and have worked my work plan tomorrow to see to it that 5pm finds me walking down to where he will be. I finally get to have mmy other half back and I am more than excited am thrilled. so much to talk about and catch up on!!! Looking forward to seeing him again and spending all the time I can with him. Meanwhile to get my mind off the time count down (its less than 20 hours now) I went out for my of late favourite evening meal, tuna sandwitch and hot chocolate with great company of my friend and wonderful sister. took the picture with my sister's iphone since I lost mine but forgot to download them. maybe they will come later. looking forward to blogging about tomorroww Sweet dreams everybody!!

An Unexpected Surprise!!

Just a few weeks ago I had a countdown on my blog for the return of JN. Well he came back safely and unfortunately I have been to busy to update my blog and for that I apologize.

We have been spending some good time together, though not as much as I would want because well let's just say he is on demand by many people like his two families and trust me I understand.

One would think that this time apart would make you the most lovie dovie couple that cherishes every moment till they are to part again. Building only wonderful happy memories... but I was wrong! We were still the same in most aspects and at some point we clashed and had this HUGE fight out of no where and the actual reason is too embarrassing to write about.

We spent the whole day fight texting till we decided to meet up and talk to sort it all out. Soon enough we had heard both sides and we owned up to our mistakes and apologised and all was forgiven. Then JN whispers to me telling me to close my eyes. I did...(atleast I tried not to close my eyes a few peeps here and there until he caught me then I would shut them again). He left me in the chair I was at for like two minutes and came back fumbling as he got to his knees (this I put together after the incident since i still didnt know at the time what was going on)

Then I heard a box shut! and since I couldn't open my eyes I raised my eyebrow to a thought slithered through my head. Before I could debate on it, I heard the question going through my ear.

" Shaaka will you Marry Me?"

The Countdown Begins

These last days of temporary loneliness now come closer to an end. Yes JN has been away on a world tour for the past three months and they are to return home for the Christmas break before they continue on their second leg of the tour. This has been the first time we have been separated for this long and I am glad to say that we have pulled through stronger and better than we thought. It was difficult to fathom him being away from me that long because we spent so much time together. The thought of him leaving left me asking myself "What am I going to do with all this time?"

I am here to say that God really sorted me out. I have been constructively occupied and that only kept my hands busy but then I thought about him always and that's where the beauty of the internet comes in. I may also add that my work place made it better. I work on a Mac computer (Yay!)so life was made easier. I got to send video messages and photos as i update him on what is happening and also vice versa. I know when we meet up on his return they will be something to laugh at and cherish.

This was also helpful during those times when they were in a location without internet. Always going back to the videos and e-mails was consoling enough to get you moving to get through the day when I had not heard from him that day or sometimes days.

Oh it has not really been a smooth wait. There were those days when JN was the only person you wanted to talk to and be there to listen. Or when there was a new place to go to or something that would be fun to do and he wasn't there.

Recently, they went to Europe and JN got a sim card and we were able to communicate via phone. Oh that was the best thing ever. I would say it kick started the countdown with a fresh fire. Just knowing he is a call or text away, made it feel like he was just another town nearby.

I could not emphasize this more, communication is like a fan to keep the fire burning, without which no real relationship can last for sure. I know this first hand. Communication can turn miles apart into minutes away.

So here goes...10days to GO!

Just Coz I Say So

thoughts pouring out

this whole love thing is a topsy turvy with ups and downs 'yes' and 'no' and worst of all 'i dont know' and 'maybe'. sometimes i feel what kate perry was singing about in hot n cold. i was quick earlier to pop the bottle of joy and relief only to be put back in the dark corner again. we know what we want but people come in throwing ideas that set us back in doubt and yet we still get back so why are we still prone to this gun shot? its killing us ...or maybe is it making us stronger? i hope we do get together and get serious with this relationship. one would ask,
arent you together?
well not really because he is still making up his mind. it is made then changes with the thoughts and i dont know when this is going to end. i cant wait to do the fun things we can get to do as friends or people relating but then there are things still holding us back. family and some friends and worst of all our PAST. i wonder when faith will start kicking in because we can not have the assurance of physical promises to give us something to hold on to. and yet again may be i should not get my self entagled be fore am fuly disentangled from the past...
am clearly getting no where with this it is just opening up more bottomless topics that will go on and on so let me sstop here i guess you would call it thoughts of the moment...

just coz i say so