My life or the lack of it!

I have been thinking of what to write about and everytime I open my blog page and the blank white box is staring at me, i think, what am i going to write about....? There i realise uhhh nothing now maybe later when something worth writing about happens!! its been almost a week and NOTHING!

so i ask myself is my life that boring? have i been sucked into the mundane road of routine!! that is a depressing feeling so i look at it in another way. Maybe I am just not opening myself up to the small beauties of life that have been passing me by without noticing. Forgive this line of thinking i am too anti-negative I try to think of another reason that would make a brighter positive problem.

Anyway I spent the whole weekend home doing nothing extra ordinary rather than dragging my feet, watching t.v (where i ate lunch for three hours) was stuck to the screen i forgot to eat so it was probably one fork bite per 20 mins. haahaha anyway i log for some adventure outside the norm of what i have now. Hoping with the return of the boo that will be possible. i guess now i can get my slow ass up and get ready for church. Something to look forward to outside the house.

Just looking for some excitement hope i dont regret it:)

any ideas people? Happy Sunday:)

Liar?

I am battling with myself on having to lie to everybody so as to get something of major importance to my life done. My brain has worked out this air tight story and its one whole huge lie!! Is it ok to lie to get some time for your life and happiness?

Well let us see how it goes and if I can get away with it.
Anyone ever had to tell a huge lie that you think of long before you tell it?

Saying Goodbye Sucks!!

In May 2007, I said an eternal goodbye to my big brother that I felt left too early. I was just getting ready to start Campus and he was the one who promised to watch my back and guide me through that crazy world. He died at 24 RIP Junior.

In 2009, My other big brother David left (temporarily...thank God) for a course overseas for three years. this was right before I got my first internship. Thank God for the internet we do keep in touch. I did not say an official goodbye because I hate goodbyes so I was the only one in the family who did not escort him to the airport.

Coming to Two months now, my darling Jaz left for a tree months tour in Australia and New Zealand. Unlike the rest three months feels like three years. hahaha but I miss him dearly!

A few weeks back after I started working at my new job another close friend of mine said goodbye too (temporarily) :) she also leaves our beloved country.

This post has been long over due and I have been wanting to write this goodbye tribute to her. So here I am to say that I hate goodbyes they suck whether for two days, a month, years or forever Goodbyes suck.

so Loreta my love I will miss you. Good thing I know you will be happy where you are.

So let me give you guys a chance to share what have been your worst Goodbyes?

oh you can also see my attempt of change of wardrobe to be corporate:))

I really tried to force a tear but that failed.... we ended up laughing about it:))

While He Was Away

The funniest things happen when you least expected. Well to me its funny because i view life from an angle that looks at the root rather than the surface and its always funny and interesting what you find. Then also the odd times somethings tend to happen when its the last thing you want to deal with.

You know when you have had a fight or at a rocky place with your partner and that’s when a crush or a cute guy or even an old flame happen to come by showing you attention, affection and tempting you to chill with them rather than work on your relationship. Its funny how such times happen when you are not on good terms and the temptation to listen and give in is there.

Well these three months have been a true testimony to how to stay faithful to the man you love no matter what comes your way. Ok so I count myself blessed to have found a high placed job (in my field of work) given to me even before I finished Uni. I have had the chance to be a Producer of a production house that for now only serves the Church that I belong to. It is an in house production department with in our church. People my age are right now being assistants to the assistant or something of the sort and I am straight up in the ranks (I am saying this with a humble heart not boast, just a testimony to where God can take you).

Anyway I believe that God had me in this hectic position (trust me its no piece of cake) for a time as this. I have had long hard days put into my work as well as learnt and met some very interesting things and people respectively. This is what I meant in my earlier post about God keeping my hands constructive. This position has pushed me to the edge and showed me that I can do more than I think I can. I will not deny I have grown up as a person, producer and boss to those that I manage.

So back to the beginning, of how these weird balls life throws at me once in a while to see if I am stable in where I am standing. In the midst of this whole working experience, I have complained about the lots of work and how busy I am for my life. Only to look back and thank God for the busy time because an idle mind is the devil’s workshop and that is so true.

I will recount today’s experience into play so as to make sense in what I am writing about. First you should know that am at a busy season in my department and the whole Church as a whole as we come closer to the Christmas season. I am booked to my eyeballs in shoots and today I had a fun one mainly because the people who we were filming were cool people who did not make me hustle or have to call out many takes till the sun sets. Anyway, we are in the middle of the shoot and I get a phone call from an ex-boyfriend. I really needed to concentrate and do the shoot well because it was a bit of a delicate nature. There were some parts we could not capture after they were done in the first take. So this call comes in and thank God I ignored it. Later when he called again and I was able to pick up, I asked him what he was calling for and he says that he was just bored and wanted someone to talk to for fun. I hang up thanking God for not having my time wasted. So what am I trying to sell home?

Let me put it in this context, all these people who cheat or find themselves committing a crime or something don’t do it just out of the blue. It is just something that is built up in them by small incidents that eventually birth into action, Now in my case, if I had the time to flirt and talk to this guy because I was idle, it would lead to more time together like spending time with him. In the absence of the main man, ladies and gentlemen that would be creating room for disaster. These thing start slowly by slowly. One little action followed by the other and before you know it, you find yourself attracted and more inclined to this person’s company than that of your partner. The more time you invest in any relationship or friendship, the stronger it grows.

Not to be all holy or perfect but I have not given any other guy the time of day to entertain or keep me company all of these months while my darling was away. How is that possible? Simple, manage your surroundings or get involved in something that keeps you busy enough not to have time to entertain the thought of messing around. Another bonus it gives is when JN calls I am so excited and honestly happy he thought of me or he has taken time out of his already hectic schedule pay some attention from some of his already little time. In a way it keeps the fire burning in the relationship because you have not let any other wind blow down your fire.

Gladly God kept me busy and I was not and am still not able to entertain any outside interests and to me I would prefer no other way to do so. Lastly, I receive a work schedule that shows I have some days of shooting and spending time with the team JN (Yay!). My workmates are teasing me nonstop saying I will not concentrate since there is a “major” distraction. Maybe they are half right hahaha but then personally it would be a welcomed distraction.

9 days to go

Just Coz I Say So